Grey

I'm in a grey area of my life right now. Full of uncertainty and frustration because of ambitious hopes and dreams that are unknown whether thay can be accomplished or attained. I'm not a very religious person but when I think about what I'm going through right now I think about this prayer...

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the
difference."

I guess I'm like every other human being. Fearing what they do not understand and maintaining an aversion for what they do not comprehend or fathom. Please, grey area. Do not break me. Let me hold on to who I am and keep a clear mind.

What's Going On?

"a poem I wrote a long time ago"

Mass confusion can lead to delusion,

But situation can become abrasive if you act too invasive,

For me life would be perfect if I was Hughe Hef,

But instead the Reeper is knocking at my door like "Who's next and who's left?",

Death all around me, there is no escaping it,

Times like these, it's rare that you see a black man making it,

I wake up every morning to CNN and ask why ?,

How many more of the soldiers in Iraq have to die ?,

They try to divert our attention to something irrelevent,

Because they don't want the public to look down on the President,

You say you like black people, Well Bush, explain this,

Why the California victims get support, but the Katrina victims get dismissed?,

People need to realize life isn't what it's cracked up to be,

People trying to constrain me, but whether they do, that's up to me,

I'm a strong black man that's seeing the world in a different way as I get older,

And I'd die before I let a old white man fuck me over,

First Blog Ever

Hi Everyone. This is my FIRST BLOG EVER. I guess I'll start off by introducing myself. I'm a young, hansome, smart boy trying to do big things in a big world. I'm 18 years old and was born in Cleveland, OH. I've lived here my entire life and I hope one day to live somewhere else. I attended and got a diploma from Collinwood Highschool. Yes, I am a railroader. I like to meet new, different, interesting people. People that I can learn something from and enjoy doing new things and are not scared to step out of their element.

Most of the time I'm chilling with my friends, going to clubs, partying, and just having fun. I like to try to make the most out of every moment of my life but at the same time be responsible by not doing anything I'm going to regret in the morning. This might be a bad habit but I have a small obsession with buying clothes. People that know me, know that all I wear is American Eagle. I have to stay looking nice all the time.

One thing that I hate are people that judge people based on subjective opinions and don't have a full idea of what it is like to be that person or live a day in their shoes. I interact with people that get discriminated against everyday. It's funny how people do this because of their own insecurities and they can't deal with what they're going through in their own life.

Anyways...I plan to do alot of things with my blog so check in often and leave comments. You can hit my up on myspace (myspace.com/ocie_pastard) or on facebook (facebook.com/ocie.pastard). So...Adios Amigos.